The Love of Money was the root of my Evil towards my Child...

I find it hard to admit that I worship money.  But this morning I made my confession public at the breakfast table.  I told my wife and my kids:

Daddy was really struggling last night.  You see, the moving company damaged our car and it will cost 1,800 to fix it.  But the moving company said they will not honor the request.  So my heart has been focused on getting that money, winning the argument and my heart never went to God in any of this. 

...and also buddy (speaking to my son), this is also why I was mean and rude to you. Because I was worshipping this money. I was worshipping being right. I was turning my eyes from God to things. And it was evil. And I did not treat you like God wanted me to. Will you forgive me...

I'm finding that being plugged into the Body of Believers in transparent/vulnerable covenant community has enabled me to go way deeper than the surface issues. And when I forget, I have friends who love me enough to point out inconsistencies in my walk and talk. I have friends I can vent to: Brothers, I just yelled at my son in an unloving way... To which they would respond, so let's go deep here and find out why... Then in the end have something like the worship of insurance money show up as the root evil. Or, as my pastor says, "dead presidents on paper."

For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evils (1 Timothy 6:10a ESV).

And this is one of the beauties of the gospel; namely, that we have reminders, even in our sin of our need for the Savior.  Not our monthly need, but our daily never ceasing need for him to deliver us from evil in our hearts.  We are so prone to wander from the God we love.  And he is in the business of forgiveness and calls us to him. 

The gospel reminds me why Jesus came to pay the price of Calvary - because I need it.